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Sat, 08 Aug 2009 03:00:56 GMT

I've decided that I like Ayn Rand for the same reason I like Kurt Vonnegut. They both make me want to write.

Mmkay

Thu, 01 Jan 2009 23:10:06 GMT

I haven't posted in the last few days, I know, but not much has been going on. I began reading Herman Hesse's Sidhartha the other day, it's pretty good. Also, I've decided to sell my electric guitar for a reverberator, I don't use an electric at the dorm so there's no point in me having it Oh and I got my 18-135mm lens back from Sam, finally. I was supposed to go out to East Aroura today to see Alicia, but I think I'll wait for tomorrow for that.

Some kinds of innocence are measured out in years...

Fri, 26 Dec 2008 05:44:48 GMT

(the title was a Beatles reference for anyone who didn't catch it.)

Christmas was good... It was christmas, normal stuff, I wont go into it except to say that my sister bought me a complete anthology of Allen Ginsberg's poetry, I was psyched.

I was talking to Gina tonight and she said to turn on channel 7, because some girl from West Seneca had died this morning, was shot to death. It turns out she was a girl I dated a few years ago, right before Mary Jo. I wont mention her name because I don't feel like having this entry tagged for it, but if you want to know look it up on google. Im not too upset for myself, of course, I haven't spoken with her in nearly 2 years and even then we weren't close, but I feel bad for her family and those who were friends with her, she was only 18... and on christmas morning...

Anyways, this entry was kind of pointless but I cant sleep and don't have anything to do.

Tue, 23 Dec 2008 02:38:03 GMT

This break has been been pretty boring thus far. Not that Im complaining, its giving me time to get some reading done, but since Chris moved to South Carolina and Sam and I broke up, Im finding most of my friends are in Oneonta, not Buffalo. In any event, Im sitting in Spot working through a novel and checking my Email... for some reason my grades haven't been posted online yet (they were supposed to be this morning.) Oh well, another uneventful night.

Deftones and Italian novels

Sun, 21 Dec 2008 05:35:34 GMT

I'm back in Buffalo! and went to Spot tonight to do some writing. When I got a few pages written, I picked up a novel (originally Italian) which I've been meaning to read, its called If on a winter's night, a traveller. It's sort of strange but good, it's written in the second person (the protagonist is the person reading the book, and is referred to as "you".)

On the way back, I was listening to the Edge, and they commented that Deftones' bassist was moved into long term care... apparently he has been in a coma since November, I didn't know, it's sad. All the same, they played a few of their songs as sort of a tribute, which was nice.

I also got some of my xmas shopping done today, good stuff.

My back has been killing my lately, my mother says I'm too young to see a chiropractor.

hmm...

Mon, 15 Dec 2008 01:50:45 GMT

I bought a macbook a few weeks ago, its really working out great... much better than my old PC laptop. Finals are this upcoming week... I'm not excited. I finished the first draft of my professional portfolio for my Education Major today, so I feel accomplished. Only 5 more days till I come home, and I can spend a whole month just working on my novel and finishing reading Visions of Cody. I've been stealing tea packets from the dining hall lately, they stock this really great stuff from Tazo called "Zen." I've been running on it all week.

Im a bit upset at a grade I got on a recent paper on Kerouac... bastard professor gave me an 85... class average was a 70, though, so I suppose it's OK. Im seriously considering transferring to Columbia next fall. The only problem, besides the obvious snag of if I would get in or not, is that its fucking expensive. An education is priceless though... or at least thats what I have to keep on telling myself.

As I go on with the semester I've found that I am no longer a messy person. My suitemates have been pointing out my organization all semester... my side of my bedroom and the little corner I usually sit in, in the living room are the only two organized places in the entire damned place.

For that matter, I've been thinking of getting plants for my room... if anyone would like to give me a christmas present, a little plant or a pot or some seeds or a suggestion on what plants to get would be helpful. (I don't have a ton of space).

I've been getting a ton of writing done lately. I can attribute that to:

1- No longer dating Sam, who took up most of my writing time and sucked my creativity

2- My "assistant," Lauren, who reviews all of my work and "babysits" me on long adventurous walks around the campus, the village, and through the country. This leaves me free to, instead of writing, narrate a chapter or two at a time of my novel to her. She takes notes of them, and recounts to me later so I can write them down. (I haven't told her yet, but I am dedicating my novel to her... whether it gets published or not, probably the later)

3- My suitemates, whose mannerisms, routines, and habits, all work to expand my creativity

4- Alicia, although she is in Buffalo, because her deep appreciation for Beat poetry, Joe Strummer, and cheep cigars has resulted in long, extravagant conversations which I don't have the time or space to get into here.

5- The second disk of the White Album, and my all time favorite record, Joe Strummer's "Rock and Roll X-Ray Style" which I listen to religiously.

In any event, Im looking forward to being back in Buffalo. Exams start Tuesday, hooray!

PS. I read a great short story by Jack Kerouac the other day, it's called "God." It is the basis for his play "There's Something About A Cigar," and I enjoyed it immensely.

Tue, 18 Nov 2008 15:51:39 GMT

I come back to Buffalo on Friday. I'm not looking forward to the eight and a half hour bus ride. This week has been a bitch and its barely started.

I need a car, or a job, or preferably both.

I've been listening to The Vines a lot lately, I like them a lot.

books

Tue, 28 Oct 2008 02:02:00 GMT

I called my mom a few days ago to ask her to mail me some books from home that I was going to need for a paper I'm writing in Lit. Today she called me back and told me she couldnt find a bunch of the titles I asked for. I told her to look again because I know I had all of them. She responded, "Well I threw a bunch of your books out awhile ago because they were all yucky."

Among the "yucky" books she threw out were my first edition of 2001 space oddyssey, my first edition of Sybil, my First edition of Electric Kool Aid Acid Test, my 1902 anthology of French Literature, my 19th century memoranda of poisons, some of my second edition steinbecks, my first edition of Abbie Hoffman's Steal This Book, a few late 19th and early 20th centruy childrens books with color monographs, my circa 1880s Biographys of great Civil War Generals with color monographs, and several first edition books of early 20th century poetry. All of which I painstakingly collected while working at Amvets.

I'm really pissed.

Bob Dylan

Sun, 19 Oct 2008 22:28:50 GMT

I just found out that Bob Dylan is coming to play a show on campus. BOB MOTHERFUCKING DYLAN! I'm so insanly psyched for it. I dont care how much tickets cost, I need to see him. It's not until November 17th so tickets arent on sale yet.EDITI came across this great musician today on Pandora, a pianist named Tommy Flanagan; he does really laid back smooth swing piano, ussially with a double bass, high hat, and snare.

reading

Fri, 17 Oct 2008 04:04:03 GMT

I have gotten come to this point, where I find that I can read no matter what mood or situation I am in I can read something. This is for no reason except that instead of going at one book at a time I'm going a a set of books, about 15 of them at once; and I have, quite on accident, picked very different texts which, I have found, can match however I happen to feel.

I need new clothes

Tue, 14 Oct 2008 21:40:21 GMT

So my observations for this semester are done. I had a lot of fun, especially the periods that I got to work with the kids, it was a good time. The mountians out my window are now more red and orange than green, I'm still trying to get used to seeing mountians out my window. Life has been strange since Sam and I broke up, I never realized what a huge chunk of my time was occupied by her. I've had a lot more time to focus on my writing, not that I'm being socially reclusive, but I'm preparing a package of work to send to Nate, who I ran into while I was getting coffee on Friday. I looked through some of his notebooks and he let me preview a longer work which he is a good bit into.

As to the subject of this entry, I do need new clothes. I think I've gotten taller in the last few months (odd,) because I'm finding some of my jeans to be short on me. The rest of what I own is stained with paint and ripped up. Theres a Salvation Army in town, maybe I'll have some luck there.In other news, I got my hair cut short.

EDIT:

I forgot to mention, there was a big protest today on campus. Apparently some guy came to campus and stood in the academic quad preaching something or other about homosexuality being a sin. 200 or so students got together for a counter demonstration.

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Wed, 08 Oct 2008 19:48:45 GMT

Back in Buffalo. Its raining. I started my observation tomorrow, and I'll be in front of the class tomorrow teaching them a poetry unit.

Sat, 04 Oct 2008 21:47:34 GMT

I have 2 full days of observation on Wednesday and Thursday. It was supposed to be 7 hours of observation and 3 hours of instructing students, grading papers, exc. but the teacher asked if I could just do 2 straight days instead. He said he's going to make a period by period schedule for me and I'll be spending a considerable amount of time working with the students. It should be interesting. I've been working on my public speaking skills, I got a 97 on a presentation on Colonialism in Nigeria for LIT150. Thats all I have for today, I'm just procrastinating because I dont feel like doing my Earth Sci. homework.

yeah

Sat, 27 Sep 2008 23:05:12 GMT

Sam and I broke up. I have a paper to write. I'm procrastinating.

It's gonna be a long day

Wed, 24 Sep 2008 14:56:50 GMT

Wednesdays are my long days, my last class wont end until Eight tonight. The New York Times didnt come on time today, and I woke up late so I didnt have time to go to the coffee shop. My French test got pushed back another week though, a little bit of good news. I didnt get to bed until almost 2 last night, I'm just beginning to realize how crazy beautiful being in the country is. At night theres no streetlights to obscure the stars and I've made a habit of going up the hill on decent nights to watch them. Speaking of hills I've gotten used to not being on flat land, and bought a pair of shoes with arches to help my feet.

Something compleatly unrelated, I started listening to Sleater Kinney again, theyre really awesome.

Ok I have to go to class now.

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Sun, 21 Sep 2008 00:57:40 GMT

Genius is as common as dirt - John Taylor Gatto

Sun, 14 Sep 2008 18:10:38 GMT

I'm headed back to Oneonta today. I should have already left but Sam keeps changing the time. Not that its her fault, her mother is driving us. "Poets are dammed but they are not blind, they see with the eyes of the angels" - William Carlos Williams... I've been thinking about that quote today. I picked up some Mighty today to bring back with me. My roomates (who are from Long Island) dont belive me when I tell them how tasty it is. I bought a new sweater yesterday.

Sun, 07 Sep 2008 23:26:58 GMT

whole intellects disgorged in total recall for seven days
and nights with brilliant eyes, meat for the
Synagogue cast on the pavement,

-Ginsberg

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Fri, 05 Sep 2008 22:57:21 GMT

Someone flooded one of the guys bathrooms today, and about half of the wing of the building my dorm is in. It was coming down the stairs like a waterfall. My bedroom wasn't flooded, but our living room and the other bedroom was. We didn't realize it until the water had already gotten into the rooms because all four of us were down the hall in a different quad. I feel bad for the other two guys, but I'm glad none of my stuff got wet. I have a ton of work to do.

oi vey, oi vey

Thu, 28 Aug 2008 03:49:19 GMT

My room mate has had his fan running for 4 days straight now... I'm not complaining because it keeps the room from getting too warm, but it think the motor is gonna burn out if he doesn't give it a break. My adviser/education professor informed me today that to meet my requirements for her class this semester I have to do my first 10 hours of field observation... preferably at home. I guess I have to start making calls.

I just made some red tea chai, its great. The guy across the hall went out and got some posters and shit for our living room. It looks a bit better now. I went up to Hartwick after classes and saw Sam, Megan, and Ryan. Two of my room mates are still out, probably in town at the frat parties. They both have eight o'clock classes... haha I feel kinda bad.

Im trying hard to convince myself that I am a morning person

Tue, 26 Aug 2008 20:58:44 GMT

...Its not working

I just got my internet up today, finally. Everything has been going pretty well, my roommates and I made a coffee table last night out of an old plastic bin, duct tape, and cardboard boxes, its classy. Not much else to say, classes start tomorrow. 9am until 8pm, yay

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Sun, 24 Aug 2008 05:41:53 GMT

I leave for SUCO in the morning. I stocked up on Tim Hortons coffee today... theres no good coffee in Oneonta. I'm watching Olympic Ping Pong... haha its great stuff. I leave in a few hours so I should get some sleep.

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Thu, 21 Aug 2008 05:52:06 GMT

My car is fucked now, it doesn't move at all. I had to get it towed back to my house and I'm just waiting for the insurance company to come and get it. Anyways, I leave Sunday so I should probably pack more.

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Tue, 19 Aug 2008 05:26:59 GMT

So, I found out that one can develop black and white film with instant coffee, distilled water, and washing soda. Apparently the result is negatives with soft contrast and, some attempts report a "redish brown hue." I would very much like to try this out, but I haven't been able to find a functioning developing tank. They can be had on ebay for 5-10 dollars, if I cant find one in the next few days, I'll order from there. I've been wanting to go back to film for my black and white photos for awhile, and have the camera and lens' to do it, but not the ambition to find and buy chemicals and all of that... If this works out, I'll have a much easier time making the switch back for, what is about 3/4 of my photos.

In other news, I got a flat tire and my engine overheated today. That was fun.

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Tue, 12 Aug 2008 16:12:49 GMT

I have to start cleaning out my desk at work soon. I have so much stuff to take with me. They (the insurance company) haven't taken my car yet (I'm surprised.) I don't really have much to say today so I guess thats all. I leave the 24th.